I'm unusually hard to hold onto.
definition of my life, in only one case though. strange. it's hard to lose me as a friend. very hard i'd like to think. Well i'm going to try, try REALLY hard to blog on a regs basis. I really really wish i had it in me to journal, but it just takes too long to write things down. typing is so much more efficient. there are always too many things going on in my head, soo typing is the closest thing i have besides actually talking to getting it all out, without forgetting anything.
I realized yesterday that blogging REALLY helps empty my head, and i LOVE that! It was the fastest i've fallen asleep in a long time. This is mainly why i want to do this, i want to give myself a solid like five minutes of just emptying my head so i can sleep without all the noise!
EXCITING NEWS!!! I get to see Nicolas Sarkozy talk tomorrow! Thank you ivy league schools! I wrote a letter to my old french teacher, Monsieur Olivetti, and I told him i was going to see him! and he wrote back to me in all french, and I still understood it!! that was a major win for me. I really miss french, it's such a great language. :)
Today, i was discussing my love for friends with Ann, and then i was saying how the main way i can differentiate my friends, is by saying who would be in my "bridesmaid" party. cause like... I luff all my friends, and how can i say who i like more? Well typically i shouldnt, but i figured like it's an interesting thing, who would you actually include. well for sure my sister gets to be the maid of honor, duhz. and then ann, lindsey, anna, and becca? those are my choices for now. I really like them :) i think i consider them my besties. but I also have other besties... my life is so complicated. hahaha well not really. I'm not sure, it'll all pan out eventually.
So i've been texting a lot again :) another youngin' hahaha. Colin might get to visit in april which would be exciting! something for me to look forward to after all these exams. seriously, 6 really? thank you SEAS! only 4 more though, and i'll be all set... for two weeks.
So i started a playlist of songs on itunes with lyrics that i am absolutely in love with. I've realized a trend. I like songs that have a beautiful and hopeful lyrics like "topeka(ludo) - every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future." and "anybody there (thescript)- if this is the face of a sinner, and heaven is only for winners, then i don't cause cause i wont know anybody there" I like those, cause i'm not religious and whatnot, but its a pleasant view telling you to really just be happy and accept who you are. There's also like... the love songs where the girl is more jaded or skeptical of love, or songs just about that in general. I really enjoy those. I feel like i relate to them, but it's weird since i'm also so quick to liking people... but i also kind of talk myself out of it quickly too, or i try. I can't really lie to myself.
I'm very skeptical of love... but i'm also a hopeless romantic.
welcome to my life.
(2 days in a row!)
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