Oh I Didn't See You There... ;)
I've decided to try to start blogging songs again, and the memories I associate them with. 
To begin, i'll use the song that made me want to do this all over again.

Drops of Jupiter - Train - Although I know my sister first showed me this song, it always reminds me of this roller skating party that my old middle school used to host. (They thought dances were only appropriate for 7th grade and up) This was 5th grade, and I was chilling with my friend and really wanted to request this song (it had just come out). Unrelated, but same event, watching the guy I liked a lottt in 4th grade dancing with someone else. my question: why why why did they have couples skate? sigh. haha It was kind dumb, cause I did like someone else. but I guess when you're that young feelings are stronger and less complicated. I miss those days. I haven't liked someone that much since 5th grade, is that sad?

What A Wicked Gang Are We - Streetlight Manifesto - First time I heard about this band was from my awesome friend Lindsey, we were on a bus to a debate competition our freshmen year (she still had a CD player :D). and she told me if she ever met a guy who knew about that band she would marry them, coincidently that day we met someone... she never married him. :( this band was also how I got her to come with me to Warped Tour '09 cause they were playing. I was at the time in loveeee with brass instruments, thus I fell in love, who knew!


Sway - The Kooks -  This is the first time i'm listening to this song, but my story with this band... I went to a concert with my friend Clara and this band Jet Lag Gemini was playing (I absolutely love them now), but we really went to go see LUDO!! But this guitarist, vlad was absolutely beautiful and amazing and I like went all fan girl, so I made it my facebook status, and friended him on facebook for fun, and he liked my status which was a small win haha. but basically at some point I chatted him on facebook, and he introduced me to the kooks.


War Is A Science - Pippin - So my brother was in the pit orchestra for this musical, and he tried showing me the music one day, but I didnt like it. He told me it makes a lot more sense when you watch the show. I went with my parents to watch and fell in love with the show (and music), I even printed out all the lyrics and made a little book out of it. Then a few years later I got to go see this song at the Goodspeed Opera with Meg cause we both loved the show so much/they had an extra ticket. 


I Don't Wanna Be - Gavin DeGraw - For some reason a tv commercial comes to my head, i have no idea why. I really like this song though, gavin degraw has some winners


Such Great Heights - The Postal Service - My first friend after I moved, jules, gave me this song. Well she didn't give it to me right when I moved but i thought that was an interesting fact. We finally decided around senior year or so of highschool that we needed to hang out again, and she gave me two cd's worth of music. one was called "tasty nugget", and the other "lobster bandit" 


All for now :)

Warped Tour 2010

Concert Withdrawl.
this is the absolute definition of my life right now. that right there > my old fav (joe K) next to my new fav (jason dean, hollah!). but i still LOVE this band like ridiculous. Love you artist versus poet! You are beautiful! You guys make me feel so special, even when youre just singing on stage. I loved meeting you guys and taking photos with you! And! my favorite part, was Joe Westbrook, waved to me! a while after meeting him, when we were leaving the venue. That felt phenomenal! I know he may not remember me anymore, but even that. I LOVE YOU JOE WESTBROOK! you're a beautiful person and yay! I need to see them again. AND! they pickd up my friend kristina for a picture upon my request! they're soo sweet. And! redeeming fact about my lovely Joe K! when i was just randomly taking pictures of them all, he posed! *below* what a nice guy! I can't wait until i get to see them again. I WILL next year. I've seen them twice, half a set each. AND i've met them 3 times now. love themm. they're my "favorite fix" haha

So I went to this wonderful event with my lovely friends Kristina and Karen. I love them! they're beautiful. I can't wait to go with them to a
CASH CASH concert in august! OMG! It's going to be the most epic concert ever. Hellooo Cash Cash, The Audition (who i've been dyingggg to see), the downtown fiction again, who BY THE WAY ARE RIDICULOUSLY ATTRACTIVE <3<3<3 nom nom nom lol. and stereo skyline who i miss soo much! I didn't really get to see them at bamboozle roadshow cause I felt bad commandeering the time, so i sacrificed my little blonde babies. :) haha THEIR ALBUM COMES OUT SOOOON! So! Another dissapointment at warped. We the Kings and NEver SHout NEver. I wanted to see their full sets too! but unfortunately, all three of these bands. artist vs poet, we the kings, and never shout never all went 15 minutes after eachother. sigh sigh sigh! 


Look at how much fun we're having! hahaha And! we're gonna go to warped tour next year! huzzahh! AND! me and kristina, we're gonna go to hogwarts this winter! We're gonna go to hogwarts! We're FINALLY GONNA DO IT! and potentially even start a band. "get the ol' band back together" just for fun and since we go through withdrawls of concerts.


 PS: OMG nevershoutnever. was AMAZING! That was fantastic. I never understood the meaning of the song "what is love" and once he played it live, holy crap. It almost makes me cry every time now. It's such a sad concept to lose your concept of love due to a tragedy such as divorce. :( I wish to see him again someday. and it will be magnificent. It reminds me when I finally understood the meaning of vanilla twilight, at least my interpretation, the loss of someone you love and needing to get over it. I love music and how powerful it is. people truly underestimate it.


Warped was soo good! I wore a tank top for the first time hahaha, and I got SUCH a legit burn/tan :) It's almost like i'm wearing it all the time. We had a lot of standing around (photo compliment of the lovely kristina haha) Oh I was suffering from BADD bug bites which you can almost see there. it was soo freaking disturbing. anyway. I guess that's basically my warped rant. I had some anger which i'm trying to block out from constantly having a lost one (kendy), and not being able to contact her. I just want to remember the good things :) AND! I get to order a new music magazine! YAY alternative press or substream? we shall soon see!


THE ROCKET SUMMER WAS AMAZING LIVE THEY PLAYED EVERYTHING I WANTED THEM TOO!! Break it out (sang a little baby bit) SO MUCH LOVE. you've got soo much love in youu, you've got so much love in youuu i'm amazed that i'm talking to you. <3<3 and Do you feel! AND!  brat pack! I didn't think he'd play these songs because they're from his old cd, but he loves me. hahahaha :P


I talk soo freaking much. I notice myself not breathing in order to finish a thought if i think someone will interrupt when i need to get something out of me. 


best friends? Do I have any? It makes me wonder. It always seems like other people have a better friend than I. I don't know. I guess I love all my friends, and I have a lot of them. So no complaints, but it'd be nice to know. I do have one college best friend I know for sure, ann :) cause we've spoken about it. but everyone else i'm unsure. But that's just a random thought. 


changing into a different person, what would i be if this didnt happen! I mean like my sudden turn to "emo/alternative/indie" ness. What if i didn't go to that first concert with my daddyy. COLDPLAY ftw! and omg!! I GET TO GO TO SEE THE JONAS BROTHERS (again) WITH MY MOMMYY for 10 bucks. I love how genuine the jonas brothers are and how nice they are, and let their tickets sell cheap so all their fans can come see them. They're such good people :) August 13th! hollah. 


ok. I need to stop writing for now. even though there's so much left in my mind.


PS: LEGEND OF THE SEEKER, beautiful show, this amazing hot guy hahahaha, aka richard, looks like damon from make it or break it! so much deliciousness. nom nom thank god for netflix. 


all my concerty love.

Summer, Take One.

Hai old friend :)


Welcome to my summer. I've been home for just under a week (well not really went to steph's wedding which took up so much time) Due to all the traveling, i've been sporting an on and off headache like this entire time. Bummer for reals. 


I'm having meself a Harry Potter Marathon, it's pretty legitimate. I fell asleep for what feels like most of the first movie, but whatever, it's fine. I've spent so much time hating on all the movies I decided it was time to give it another chance. So i'll be watching most of the movies, aka 3-6 for the second time. Isn't that insane? Well It's exciting. I'll be doing it again soon next summer to complete out the entire series. 


I miss my friends from college, I love them! They're amazingg! To name a special few, Ann, Isabel, Jorge, Emily, Lydia, and many many many others. I'll be returning to NYC soon, and doing lab research! legitimate! k, working in a lab, whatevs. haha Ann and Emily both have internships in the city, and Isabel and Jorge both live wayyy nearby! :) It's gonna be a good summer. It's really lovely awesome being home, but I won't lie, I can't wait to see some of my other friends again.


Can I mention that this is the WORST week to be out of the city? Wednesday- Reunion, Thursday- StereoSkyline music video shoot, Saturday- FREE JONAS BROTHERS CONCERT IN CENTRAL PARK for good morning america. sigh sigh sigh sigh. WOE IS ME! :( wah. but it's ok. I'll be fine. not. but maybe...


I'm glad i'm friends with rachel again :) it's nice. We chatted on the phone about all the good things aka harry potter twilight, and life. It was a semi short convo like 30 minutes but sweet none the less.


Holy crap Harry is so little in the first and second movies. he's so short. hahaha :) Still not attracted to him hahaha. Waiting to make brownies with Lindsey, can we please work on my headache going away?


I got to vidchat with Isabel and Jorge yesterday! It was amazing, I really do miss them alot. we were all chilling in our separate kitchens haha. totally legitimate. I want to buy sooo many things hahah. I was grocery shopping in preparation for my partay tomorrow, and like i wanted to buy EVERYTHING hahaha.


well i'm gonna focus on harry potter now.


Love.

day 3! 
     I should be sleeping, but instead i'm making crappy ringtones :) well they're only bad quality cause it's like awesome orchestra music, but you know what! I'm like in love with brahm's symphonies! my eyes like almost watered... omg!!
     GOOD NEWWWSS!! I THINK I GOT RESEARCH FOR THE SUMMER!
bad news: that means that i had my last summer of complete relaxation last summer...
     gotta sleep now. exam tomorrow!


<3

I. Saw. President. Sarkozy! SECOND ROW! Woke up like a highschooler... 6:30am. intense and tired. so tired. so worth it! I understood most of the frenchh!! so that was a really happy moment for me. to know i hadn't lost it all.


Thought a lot of things today, i'll try to remember at a later date.


evening.

I'm unusually hard to hold onto.


     definition of my life, in only one case though. strange. it's hard to lose me as a friend. very hard i'd like to think. Well i'm going to try, try REALLY hard to blog on a regs basis. I really really wish i had it in me to journal, but it just takes too long to write things down. typing is so much more efficient. there are always too many things going on in my head, soo typing is the closest thing i have besides actually talking to getting it all out, without forgetting anything. 
     I realized yesterday that blogging REALLY helps empty my head, and i LOVE that! It was the fastest i've fallen asleep in a long time. This is mainly why i want to do this, i want to give myself a solid like five minutes of just emptying my head so i can sleep without all the noise!


EXCITING NEWS!!! I get to see Nicolas Sarkozy talk tomorrow! Thank you ivy league schools! I wrote a letter to my old french teacher, Monsieur Olivetti, and I told him i was going to see him! and he wrote back to me in all french, and I still understood it!! that was a major win for me. I really miss french, it's such a great language. :)


     Today, i was discussing my love for friends with Ann, and then i was saying how the main way i can differentiate my friends, is by saying who would be in my "bridesmaid" party. cause like... I luff all my friends, and how can i say who i like more? Well typically i shouldnt, but i figured like it's an interesting thing, who would you actually include. well for sure my sister gets to be the maid of honor, duhz. and then ann, lindsey, anna, and becca? those are my choices for now. I really like them :) i think i consider them my besties. but I also have other besties... my life is so complicated. hahaha well not really. I'm not sure, it'll all pan out eventually. 
     So i've been texting a lot again :) another youngin' hahaha. Colin might get to visit in april which would be exciting! something for me to look forward to after all these exams. seriously, 6 really? thank you SEAS! only 4 more though, and i'll be all set... for two weeks. 
    So i started a playlist of songs on itunes with lyrics that i am absolutely in love with. I've realized a trend. I like songs that have a beautiful and hopeful lyrics like "topeka(ludo) - every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future." and "anybody there (thescript)- if this is the face of a sinner, and heaven is only for winners, then i don't cause cause i wont know anybody there" I like those, cause i'm not religious and whatnot, but its a pleasant view telling you to really just be happy and accept who you are. There's also like... the love songs where the girl is more jaded or skeptical of love, or songs just about that in general. I really enjoy those. I feel like i relate to them, but it's weird since i'm also so quick to liking people... but i also kind of talk myself out of it quickly too, or i try. I can't really lie to myself.


 I'm very skeptical of love... but i'm also a hopeless romantic.


welcome to my life. 
(2 days in a row!)

set mood music.


So tonight i'm apparently very pensive. So i figure the best way is to get all these thoughts out of my head and onto this blog, and maybe i'll stop talking to myself and I can get some sleep tonight. 


I've been staying up later and later, and this is the third consecutive day of me sleeping this late (it's 3am, i slept at 4am yesterday). I'm pretty sure i'm constantly analyzing myself, and i'm not really a fan that with every guy i'm friends with, i have to "like" them for at least a small increment of time before it becomes completely platonic. Can't i just find someone who i can just be friends with that isn't a girl. I guess it's fine, cause once i get over it its ok. I'm pretty sure it's partially the reason why I worked so hard tonight, cause i was in a slightly subdued mood, bringing down my mood just enough to get me to focus. Thanks j! It's nice having someone to talk to, and it has resulted in many late nights on my part, but I don't mind. it was fun :) i think i'm reaching platonic. yay! the ultimate goal.


So today i started talking to Ian again. It was nice to get everything about rachel completely off my chest. Well i guess i'd done that enough, but for some reason he felt like a more direct source, and like, It was such a long time ago, it was weird having it all come back. it was junior year, wow I can't believe how long ago that feels. I remember there being good times, but everytime i think of something fun from then, all these memories of what made me suppress all those times in my mind and even chose to cut people out of my life come flooding back. I can't have one without the other, and that's kind of sad. I want to remember the good things. Life is too short to dwell. 


Recently, things with T have been completely platonic for me! that was also one of those strange things. How quickly things change. Thank you vacation :) It's nice to have him as a friend, but i'm glad i've reached this level. I don't even have this crazy need to text him anymore. i'm perfectly content.


Friends! I love them. i love my music friends. I realized over vacation how much i actually love my friends. I used to believe that love only pertained to family, and that one special other. It then hit me, that I'd drive like anywhere for my friends, and how much i just really truly enjoy being with them. If that's not love, then what is? I want to be with people who make me laugh so hard that I can't breathe. Or i just look back and think "i want to go back and relive that." That is what happens every time i go to a music festival. In fact! i went to the NEMFA concert this year, and those few hours i spent with Joel, Dave, Max, Milod, JENA!!, and Colin were amazing. I would not have replaced it for the world. I even drovee to storrs to hang out with Dave, Max, and Milod. That day was amazing. I loved being able to just hang out with them, no rehearsals to worry about. I can't wait till I get to see them again at Dave's cys concert! may 23rd. I'm counting down the days. I'm stuck in highschool, and I don't mind. If those friends didn't make me so happy, I wouldn't want to go back so much. 


Dissapointments. I'm not going to bamboozle. I wanted to go so bad, but for some reason it's not happening. I can't go by myself, everyone wants to go on the sunday when I have an exam that saturday. and plus. saturday has paramore. definetly one of my favorite bands right now. I'm also still unsure that I can go to the first This Providence Headlining tour. I seriously can't depend on anyone but myself, or lindsey. There has never been someone who was as dependable as she. she's one of the best friends I have, and I know i can count on her for anything/if i really want to do something or she does, that it will happen. I pride myself in the fact that I keep in touch with people, and that I am now willing to drive to see people. I really care about the relationships i have with people. Awesome tidbit: when i was visiting max dave and milod, I got to see Joe! joe from science bowl who I hadn't seen since 8th grade... yup 5 years! It wasn't awkward, but actually really awesome. I hope to hang out with him again soon. He's such a nice guy, I'm glad i kept in touch. 


The sleep is starting to crash over me. <3